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So here goes ...

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add me on livejournal if you have an account.

HAHA. yeah (:
see ya.

i am out!

I've moved.
not sure if it is permanant but i like blogging there. (:
the website add will be revealed soon when i'm ready.

take care.

you wish you could vanish
you wish you could forget the world
you fly away.

now i am left with nothing.

goodbye world.
i am going on a long hiatus.

and i wonder why...
i reflected and i thought through it but yet i dont know why i am at this state right now. i know i did what i was supposed to do, i tried my best but yet i am always ending up at square one. All the hopes and aspirations seems to have gone to waste; i just want to give up trying so badly.

how do you break away from the pressure? how do you break away from being stupid? how do you break away and just be yourself?

i tried loving and i tried everything i could possibly do. But yet somehow the envrionment always seems to affect my passion for studying.

GOD, HELP ME!

Merry Christmas to Everyone! (:
Have a splendid Christmas Day.

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i think i have lost all interest in blogging.
my results are out on tues. :(
i am scared and i cant deny it; perhpas juggling between exams, projects and camp was a little too much. i cant afford to screw up anymore. But i know i did my best and i just want the greatest glory to go back to Him.

and because of that, i have peace.
i feel so blessed. (:

I have been so busy this week that i havent got the time to update. Gosh, it has been packed with last minute christmas shopping and meeting up with lots of people.(: I am still not done with my christmas shopping which means that i will probably will be in town for the next few days.

i am so broke right now. :( met up with church people for the last few days, KEY and going to meet gin, nessa and xuan tonight. omg, pris and lynn! LETS MEET UP SOON QUICK!!!

i am going up to mysia next tues. Darn, i need to meet up with everyone first. (:

JUDEA OWNAGE! <3

i need people to send me more camp pictures!!! (:

Oh Lord, you searched me.
You know my way.
You go before me
You shield my way
Your hand upholds me
i know you love me.

if i could only ask for one thing, that would be it
everything in its time.

wow i cant believe that i havent blogged for the past one and a half week. God has been good. HE sustained me through the camp preparations and the worship retreat last week. okay here are some updates..

worship retreat.

by far, the best retreat i have been to. i learnt so much about the essence of worship,had lots of bonding time with people and really enjoyed everything. the games we had were rather lame but they really bonded us closer.

i was already falling sick by Sunday. Camp Comm stayed overnight on Sunday to do the last minute preparation. It was tiring and i wasnt sure if i could even last through camp. 5 days passed by really fast and everything seems to be in a blur right now. i cant believe camp has ended. :D

Gosh, i have learnt so much through this camp that all i want to do right now is to stop , think and to praise God. i couldnt have asked for a better camp comm, i coulnt have asked for a better speaker & mentors and i couldnt have asked for the people who came to the camp than these. God has been faithful and God has indeed been good. To see people being touched by God's presence, their heart of surrendering their problems and their worries away and being used by God in such mighty ways.

if we do stop and think, we will realised that God has always been there.

God has been good. i am really lost for words because God has shown me how real He is through the working of their lives and mine. Tears of joy came on tuesday when i saw the youths' yearning for revial in their lives. There were moments when i felt like giving out, when tears of frustration came down but i realised that everything really worked out according to what we prayed for.

i dont think i have shared this before. 6 months ago, i was really praying on whether to take up the role of camp commandant. i know myself well, i am not a born leader and i prefer to play a more supportive role. (:

God spoke to me through Hebrews 11. I have read that passage a million times before but that night, God opened my eyes to what He wanted to say to me.

"All these people were still living by fiath when they died. They did not receive. the things promisedl they only saw them and welcome them from a distance...Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God for he has prepared a city for them"
-Heb 11: 13-16

The city was already prepared and i should go in faith. (: Yesterday night, God worked through me again by allowing Dan to pray for me. It was simply amazing that although i have never shared with him before; God allowed Him to pray for the things that i was really struggling through handling the camp. It was truly a breakthrough moment.

i promised myself that i wont cry. But i am only human and i am glad i cried only when i had to. God really sustained me and gave me strength even when it got tiring. It was really very fufilling to see lives changing. I cant help feeling at peace right now.

Dan made his decision today. tears couldnt stop flowing because i only knew him for 2 years and He has been such a great friend and dgl partner with me. But i know it is for the best and i know that He would be happier there. (:

Most importantly, i thank God that i have been used when i was nothing; when i didnt know what to do. To see people changing and yearning for God , to see the camp comm being open and supporting each other, for mentors who were there to lead the way and to everyone that took the step of faith to come for this camp..

Truly, Thy Kingdom Come, Let Your Will be Done.

Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us. To him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen!
- Ephesians 3:20

i'm back! :D

WOOOOOHOOOOO! exams are finally over !! i am feeling at peace right now! okay, but the paper they tested something that wasnt even in the textbooks or notes. i am so dead. :( i finished the paper in one hour and i walked out. met some people from the tutorial class and was complaining about the whole paper.

oh well, it is over!

headed down to PS to have dinner with glenn, jeff and marianne.
went over to TNT for worship practice for camp.
it felt good to be in God's presence, blocking everything out and just singing for Him. everything is going to be alright. :D

everything in its time.

worship retreat tml. wont be back till thurs.
busy week ahead. :D

oh hello! (:

i know that my images in photobucket are not working! i cant help it if people do not upload the pics themselves. after exams, i will change the links in blogskins and upload the images in another account. you all can redownload the skins if you want to use them again. sorry about that! (:

i havent been blogging. it has been a busy weekend. i just need to start studying on my last paper even though i dont even know what to expect from a GIS paper. it is so weird. gosh, i am going to back to read the textbook.

till tues, freedom comes!

Praise God that the week is almost over! one more paper today and the weekends will be here! will start studying on sat during church! i should have enough time for the last paper on tues. :D

one tree hill season 4 is getting exciting and demoralising at the same time! omg! LUCAS AND PEYTON ARE FINALLY TOGETHER and they had to come up with a stupid ending of lucas having a life threatening heart attack. if he dies in the next espisode, i will jump! :p

bleh..back to my notes.
i need to sleep soon!